last few hours in hong kong

okay i pretty much finished packing, everything fitting into the luggage ready to go except my self. it might be the first time i am that reluctant to leave. for obvious reasons, that the coming months will be hectic. i am sure i will get frustrated from time to time but pheebs and i have already made an agreement, we would do everything to make ourselves (and for each other) to stay positive and carry on. is it really going to be that bad? we dont know but theres not much to expect, especially when we are aware of how we have changed in this placement year, our attitude towards what was once our belief. and also realising, theres not much people that i could genuinely talk to back in this place. the try-to-put-more-effort-into-my-social-circle phase has expired for my uni years, and my hopes for this city have already exhausted. but probably thats what contribute to my current state, that i am so clear about what should i do, and how should i do them accordingly. its all quite strategic. theres a whole bunch of things that i could simply ignore and no longer need to feel sorry for, and a whole bunch of things that i have to put my mind into and prioritise. yes it is that simple. it is not the usual me but it seems to be the only way to be productive and stay mentally healthy for this last semester. so lets see. its a promise to myself. phew.